Mother’s Day

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I love Mother’s Day. It’s the perfect day to spend time with loved ones, get some yard work done, and make excuses for eating that extra donut (I’ve raised 3 kids, I totally earned it, right?). My girls are super festive-especially my oldest. They LOVE to celebrate. I can’t blame them, they get it from me. The very first thing Lane said to me when we woke up this morning was, “Happy Mother’s Day, Mommy!” In fact, I think I love this little holiday more and more every year.

I am so grateful for the family that God has given me. A loving husband, three beautiful girls. They give me all the warm and fuzzy feelings. All of them. I love getting to be a momma. It’s such a beautiful privilege. I have learned so much these past 5 years, and I wouldn’t trade being a mom for the world. Truly, I am so very blessed. However, on this day, I can’t help but turn my heart and mind to those babies that I’ve lost. Judah’s birthday is May 2, and my due date for the twins was supposed to be at the end of May, which makes this a particularly difficult month for us.

I don’t understand why my babies had to be taken away from me-I don’t think I ever will. I long for their arms around my waist and to hear their tiny voices whisper, “I love you” into my ear. How I wish I could have seen their grubby little fingers as they helped to plant our garden today, to see their muddy footprints all over our floors. These are things I will not have this side of heaven. And I don’t know why. I feel the weight of it every day. But particularly this month, and especially today. It’s not an easy road to walk, I don’t think it ever will be. I hear different things from different people. “It never gets any easier” “Things will get better, just give it time” “There will be good days and bad days.” I think they’re all true, in different ways. In some ways, it simply does not get easier. It is never easy to look at little boy clothes, or to hear about twins. Some things are truly better-my perspective for one. And while a part of me aches all the time, some days I simply ache more than others. Today is one of those days.

So for all of you beautiful women out there-those who have lost babies, and those who cannot have babies, know this: I’m right there in the trenches with you. You are not alone in your pain. And while I may or may not know you, I am praying for you. It’s ok if Mother’s Day is a hard day for you. It’s a hard day for me too. And my sorrow does not negate my joy. Somehow they are intertwining to write a beautiful story-one I could never write on my own. It is well known that there is beauty in joy, but there is beauty in sadness as well; a beauty all it’s own, a beauty we may not ever understand. But God is working, He’s painting a picture we can’t quite yet see. I yearn for the day when I can see my Savior face to face and He can show me the beauty that lay in all of my pain.

But until then, sweet friends, let’s cling to one another. Let’s pray for each other, lift each other up. Laugh together, cry together, rejoice and weep and celebrate and mourn-sometimes all at the same time. Let’s hold each other’s hands and walk this road together. Because, beloved, this road was never meant to be walked alone.

 

Work It With What You’ve Got

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I LOVE getting new clothes. There’s just something about it. They make you feel g.o.o.d. However, new clothes are not always in the budget. Especially when you’re buying for 5 people. That being said, when I shop for clothing, I try to find classic styles that will last me at least a few years. Now, I’m not saying I don’t ever buy “trendy” clothes, but that’s not where I spend the bulk of my money. The outfit I’m showing you today I put together from things that I’ve had in my closet for awhile.

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I’m still in this weird phase where I can’t lose the weight I gained from the twins we lost. So finding clothes that I actually feel good in (and that still fit) is definitely a win (and a challenge). I don’t want to buy a ton of new clothes that I won’t be using for a long time.

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So into my closet I head every morning trying to find something that works, fits, and looks cute. Also, on a side note, we’re working on this whole posing thing. I am NOT a natural. 😅

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These ankle boots are basically my favorite. I have flat feet, and when I don’t wear supportive shoes, or my orthotics, my feet KILL. Needless to say, I have a slim selection of shoes that I wear on a regular basis. These are one of those pairs. I love that I can wear them in any season and with basically any look. They look great with dresses, skinny jeans, graphic tees, or flowy blouses. Talk about more bang for your buck! I found them on TJMaxx.com for about $30 last August. It took a lot of searching and waiting to find them, but, oh, they were so worth the wait! These are pretty similar.

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These beautiful pale pink capris are from Kohl’s. They’ve been in my closet for a few years, and I love pulling them out every Spring. I will admit that as much as I love them, they aren’t terribly kid friendly. I get something on them every. time. I wear them. However, they wash up really well, and so far I haven’t gotten any noticeable stains! Fingers crossed!

My sweater (which is actually a t-shirt), as well as my necklace and jacket are all from Target. I bought the sweater years and years ago-like, before I had kids-off of the clearance rack. I wear it every year, and love the texture it gives my outfit. A lovely friend bought the necklace for me as a birthday gift a couple of years ago-I get compliments on it every time I wear it. As for the jacket, my mom bought this for me as a birthday present WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL!!! Or maybe I was just out of high school…either way, it was around 10 years ago. Talk about a classic! I have always loved this jacket. Unfortunately, it’s time for a new one. This one is still in great shape, but it’s been a little tight around my arms for several of those 10 years. I just haven’t wanted to fork over the cash for a new one yet. I have been eyeing this one though. I don’t like it quite as much as the original, but it’s still a great jacket. This is definitely one item that I would say every woman needs in her closet. It makes for a great go-to, light jacket that you can pull out at least 3 seasons of the year. I also have one in a dusty rose color. I’m telling you, you can’t go wrong with this one.

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My earrings are from my absolute favorite earring makers Nickel & Suede. I am admittedly a little bit obsessed. I’ve actually lost count of how many pairs I have. At least 10. But here’s the thing. I have very sensitive ears, and if my earrings are even a tiny bit heavy, I have to take them out midday and then deal with sore ear lobes for a few hours after. These earrings, however, are made with leather. Which means they are basically weightless. I cannot get enough of them. They have so many different colors and textures, plus they make some seriously beautiful bracelets and chokers too. You should definitely check them out.

And that’s it! It can be really difficult to be in this awkward stage, and trying to work with the things that do fit, can get tiresome. I’ve just been challenging myself to look at what I have with fresh eyes, pair things together that I haven’t tried yet, and to keep things creative. I hope this helps you to maybe see what you have in your closet with fresh eyes and a new perspective. I would love to see what you put together! Show me below in the comments.

 

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