Advent: Days 12-16 2017

I know I’ve been off my game this year. It’s ok. I’m letting it slide. I want to let you all in on a little secret. I don’t have it all together. I know it can seem that way so many times. We see each other once a week or so, or only through social media, and everything seems perfectly in place. I’m not saying my life always looks like that (in fact, I feel like it seldom does), but that’s often (almost always) how I view other people. It’s this lie that the enemy likes to whisper in our ears, “everybody has it together except for you….you are not enough…you’ll never own up, so just. stop. trying.” It’s super embarrassing to post this for all the world to see, but I had a little meltdown Sunday night. We had a fun, busy weekend, and we came home to a disastrous house. After we got the girls in bed, Blake went down to the basement to finish up some work that he had and I spent the next hour or so cleaning our pit of a house. The whole time I kept asking myself, “How on earth did it get this way?…I try so hard all day long, and this is still what I end up with?…Why can all the other moms out there get this, but I just can’t?…I will never be enough. I can’t do it. This is too hard.” And on and on and on. I cried myself to sleep that night. That almost never happens.

I tell you this, not because I want your sympathy or your pity. I tell you this because I know every other woman out there has felt this way at some point or another. It seems as though we are always in some sort of unspoken competition with each other. I see it in my daughters already and I try to fight those kinds of thoughts out of their sweet little heads. The enemy we face is real, he starts to prey on us while we are young, and he never stops.

Truth be told, I have a lot of good reasons for not being on top of things. We’re homeschooling, which is awesome, but we’re only in 1st grade and I’m still trying to figure it out. I’m 30 weeks pregnant. The aches and pains and limitations are real. And with our history, I’m taking every precaution possible. I refuse to push myself too hard this time. Blake just started his own company a few moths ago with 3 other partners. Everything is new, and exciting, and hard. He works 50-80 hour weeks every. single. week. It’s just a season, it won’t always be like this. But it is the season we are in now. And it’s hard. Raegan had her tonsils out a couple of weeks before Thanksgiving. And while she was recovering, she came down with this awful virus that made her recovery 10x worse-and longer-and harder. We had sick kids for basically a whole month. Life. Just. Happens. Things fall through the cracks. Sometimes we can’t keep up. And that’s ok. But it is oh so hard to remember that in the moment.

I was “off” for a couple of days after that. I just felt so defeated. Then Eleanor fell off of our rocking ottoman just before bedtime on Tuesday and I rushed her to the ER so she could get stitches. The waiting room was jam packed and we were there until just after 1am. She got 3 stitches in her tiny little eyebrow that night. When I got home, the other 2 kids had woken up and didn’t go back to sleep until 4am. It was the second night in a row they had done that. Needless to say, this week has been more than exhausting. Then on Thursday morning, Blake paid for me to go get a (very much needed) prenatal massage. We went out to eat that night for my Mother-in-law’s birthday. It was so nice. Just what I needed to turn my week around. I’ve been ok since then. I still have to fight to press down those lies that I get fed all day long. But it’s a battle that I feel like I’m winning right now. The counters in my kitchen aren’t clear from the clutter that’s on them. Our laundry room needs picked up. Our floors could be mopped (even though I’ve done that just about every day this week). But our room is clean, the girls picked up their room, I’ve kept the playroom clean for 10 whole weeks now, and our dishes are washed. I’m counting my wins. Trying to focus on what I’ve accomplished instead of what I’ve not. And tonight, I am going to post what we’ve done for the past few days-it may be late, but I’m doing it, and that’s a win.

SO, all that to say, on Tuesday, we made a gingerbread house. I learned something that day: gingerbread house making is not my strong suit. Next year, I’ll probably buy an already constructed one for us to simply decorate. 😅 You guys, the struggle was real. My mom was actually able to come over for a bit to help us out with the project-so that was really fun!

 

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And 30 minutes later, this is how it ended up:

Wednesday, we went through the drive-thru at Starbucks so momma could get a Chestnut Praline Latte (my absolute fave), and so the girls could each get on of those snowmen cookies they are always begging me to get for them. We had some errands to run, so this was the only picture I got.

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Thursday, I gave the girls some really fun, incredible Christmas activity books from Usborne. Those books kept them occupied for the longest time.

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Friday, we decorated those plastic ball ornaments with the girls. We pulled the glitter out again. It was a HUGE hit. I should have taken some “after” photos, but Blake and I had to rush out before they were done for a Christmas party. My parents helped them finish up, but I never snapped any more photos. IMG_0780IMG_0783IMG_0781IMG_0782IMG_0779

And this morning, Saturday, we had our second annual Ron Swanson themed Christmas party with another family. We were having so much fun, I forgot to take pictures. But we had bacon, and eggs, and ham, and we exchanged gifts. The kids played and we parents got to talk. It was such a good, refreshing morning.

Well that’s it! Thanks for sticking with me! Even though it’s been crazy, I am truly enjoying this holiday season, and I hope you are too.

 

Work It With What You’ve Got

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I LOVE getting new clothes. There’s just something about it. They make you feel g.o.o.d. However, new clothes are not always in the budget. Especially when you’re buying for 5 people. That being said, when I shop for clothing, I try to find classic styles that will last me at least a few years. Now, I’m not saying I don’t ever buy “trendy” clothes, but that’s not where I spend the bulk of my money. The outfit I’m showing you today I put together from things that I’ve had in my closet for awhile.

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I’m still in this weird phase where I can’t lose the weight I gained from the twins we lost. So finding clothes that I actually feel good in (and that still fit) is definitely a win (and a challenge). I don’t want to buy a ton of new clothes that I won’t be using for a long time.

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So into my closet I head every morning trying to find something that works, fits, and looks cute. Also, on a side note, we’re working on this whole posing thing. I am NOT a natural. 😅

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These ankle boots are basically my favorite. I have flat feet, and when I don’t wear supportive shoes, or my orthotics, my feet KILL. Needless to say, I have a slim selection of shoes that I wear on a regular basis. These are one of those pairs. I love that I can wear them in any season and with basically any look. They look great with dresses, skinny jeans, graphic tees, or flowy blouses. Talk about more bang for your buck! I found them on TJMaxx.com for about $30 last August. It took a lot of searching and waiting to find them, but, oh, they were so worth the wait! These are pretty similar.

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These beautiful pale pink capris are from Kohl’s. They’ve been in my closet for a few years, and I love pulling them out every Spring. I will admit that as much as I love them, they aren’t terribly kid friendly. I get something on them every. time. I wear them. However, they wash up really well, and so far I haven’t gotten any noticeable stains! Fingers crossed!

My sweater (which is actually a t-shirt), as well as my necklace and jacket are all from Target. I bought the sweater years and years ago-like, before I had kids-off of the clearance rack. I wear it every year, and love the texture it gives my outfit. A lovely friend bought the necklace for me as a birthday gift a couple of years ago-I get compliments on it every time I wear it. As for the jacket, my mom bought this for me as a birthday present WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL!!! Or maybe I was just out of high school…either way, it was around 10 years ago. Talk about a classic! I have always loved this jacket. Unfortunately, it’s time for a new one. This one is still in great shape, but it’s been a little tight around my arms for several of those 10 years. I just haven’t wanted to fork over the cash for a new one yet. I have been eyeing this one though. I don’t like it quite as much as the original, but it’s still a great jacket. This is definitely one item that I would say every woman needs in her closet. It makes for a great go-to, light jacket that you can pull out at least 3 seasons of the year. I also have one in a dusty rose color. I’m telling you, you can’t go wrong with this one.

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My earrings are from my absolute favorite earring makers Nickel & Suede. I am admittedly a little bit obsessed. I’ve actually lost count of how many pairs I have. At least 10. But here’s the thing. I have very sensitive ears, and if my earrings are even a tiny bit heavy, I have to take them out midday and then deal with sore ear lobes for a few hours after. These earrings, however, are made with leather. Which means they are basically weightless. I cannot get enough of them. They have so many different colors and textures, plus they make some seriously beautiful bracelets and chokers too. You should definitely check them out.

And that’s it! It can be really difficult to be in this awkward stage, and trying to work with the things that do fit, can get tiresome. I’ve just been challenging myself to look at what I have with fresh eyes, pair things together that I haven’t tried yet, and to keep things creative. I hope this helps you to maybe see what you have in your closet with fresh eyes and a new perspective. I would love to see what you put together! Show me below in the comments.

 

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