Wandering

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I don’t know where to start, really. To be honest, I don’t actually know what I’m talking about. Right now I’m feeling all the feels, and the best way for me to process that is to write. Sometimes I just get this inspiration-this urgency-to write. Stop everything. Get out of bed. Go downstairs. Grab my laptop. And write. So here I am. Writing. Processing. Wandering.

I’ve stepped away from this whole blogging thing for a minute. Not intentionally. Not at all on purpose. Not for any one specific reason. But I have. Mostly, it’s a lot of work. Take the pictures. Load the pictures. Find something to write about. Write the things. Add the pictures. Edit it. Publish it. Let people know that you published it. It doesn’t sound like a lot. But it FEELS like a lot. Especially since it’s so hard to write when I hear “mom……mom…..mommy…..mom…..” in the middle of every sentence. It’s usually best that I wait for the kids to go to bed before I write another post. So that’s one reason. Another reason? Writing about Judah was exhausting. So. So. Exhausting. Honestly, I wasn’t really expecting that. Sure, I expected it to be hard. But boy, WAS IT HARD! I felt so drained after every post. I have no regrets. I’m so grateful I was able to get that part of our story out there. But I think I just really needed a little bit of a breather after that one. In addition to all that, we’ve just been insanely busy. We went on vacay to California for a week, had Eleanor’s birthday, and then my birthday, the big girls had their recital, I’m still working on my 20 Mile March purge (which is so close to being done, by the way), plus I started selling LipSense and Usborne Books (which was more time consuming than I anticipated). But I feel like things may just be starting to settle down a bit.

I’m going to get real here for a minute. Take it or leave it. I honestly believe God has big plans for me and this little blog. I really think it’s going to go places. Not because there’s anything special about me or what I have to say. But because I serve a God who loves His people and who wants those people to live in community-sharing each other’s burdens, lifting each other up, encouraging one another. And I think that can come in all sorts of forms. I think it can look like sharing our stories, like telling each other our favorite easy recipes, giving some fashion advice so we can all feel a little more beautiful, showing sweet moments with our kids. The sky is the limit really.  I believe the Lord has given me something to say, and I need to say it. I think people need to hear it. Because I need to hear it. Sometimes, I really need to hop on my computer and read what somebody else is doing, see what they’re walking through, and how they’re walking through it. Why? BECAUSE THEN I FEEL LIKE I’M NOT DOING IT ALONE. And I think that’s the point.

There’s this little part of me that’s scared of that reality. Do I really want my blog to get big? To reach people? That’s a pretty big responsibility. Sometimes that holds me back. And then there’s this other part of me that says, “What if you’re wrong? What if you pour your heart and soul into this and it never reaches anyone? What then?” Maybe it sounds silly, but I actually sometimes get this visual in my head of people pointing at me and laughing, because I’m a failure. When really, at the end of the day, if I don’t succeed by “blogging standards”, so what? Who really cares? I gave it my all and that’s all that really matters anyway, right? Guys, really. I don’t know what I’m saying. I’m so tired, but “all the feels” are keeping me from my sleep. Sometimes I wish my brain came with an “on/off” switch.

Anyway, if you could, would you pray for me? I need some guidance, some encouragement. It takes a lot of courage to just put yourself and all your feelings and emotions and things like that out there. Especially for me. I like to pretend like everything is all good, all the time. I’m super strong and can handle anything that life throws at me without ever cracking. I don’t really need anybody’s help because I can do it all on my own. Seriously? Who do I even think I am? That kinda livin is a lie. And so not good for me. I’m working on it. Believe it or not, I’ve actually come kind of a long way. But, boy oh boy, do I have a looooooong way to go.

If you’re still here with me, thanks for sticking with it. Sorry for my ramblings, and sorry for being all over the place with this post. Who knows, I may even wake up in the morning, read it, and then decide to delete it because it doesn’t make any sense. But at least I feel like I can sleep now. #writingtherapy I don’t even have a good way to sum it all up so I’m just gonna say bye. Goodnight. I hope this post doesn’t stop you from reading other posts. See ya!

Finally A Natural Deodorant that ACTUALLY works!

Well this is embarrassing. I am here today to tell you that I stink. No really. I do. This isn’t some lame attempt for me to try and get some pity compliments or boost my self-esteem. No. Literally, I smell. Really bad. Or that is, I used to.

I still remember the day that my mom so loving pulled me aside and told me that I “was stinky” and needed to start using deodorant. Thanks, Mom! (No really, thank you).  Ever since that moment I have been on the search for a deodorant that actually works. I spent years trying different kinds. And let me tell you, it’s been pretty brutal. Nothing actually worked! I would apply my deodorant in the morning, and long before the day was over, I could smell myself. Gross. I still spent so much time being conscious of where my arms were at all times (typically by my side). Not fun. I was constantly afraid that I would be “that person” who emitted a nasty smell into every room I entered.

And let’s talk about that time when all these news reports came out that some deodorants/antiperspirants were directly linked to some cases of breast cancer….that was even worse. My parents (out of the love and concern in their hearts) would only let me buy certain kinds. Yeah, wearing those was even worse than wearing nothing at all. It got so bad that we gave up and I still, prayerfully, wore “the cancer deodorant.” As far as the “clinical” deodorants were concerned, it was like 50/50 if it would even do the job that day. And who wants to spend the extra money on a deodorant that barely works better than the regular kind? Not me. Even if I did find something that I kind of liked, it felt like it would work for a short time and then stop working all of a sudden. Then I was back on the hunt again. I was seriously tired.

Now I do have to admit, about a year ago a found a couple of different natural deodorants that I really liked. But I didn’t love them. I wanted so badly to love them. But it just wasn’t meant to be. It was the same story, they would work for a time, and then stop working again. But at least that cancer thing was out of the picture, right? After using those for almost a year, I was about to give up. Then somebody introduced me to Native Deodorant. You had better believe I looked it up on my phone right then and there and placed my first order. Honestly, I have been a more confident person since! Call me dramatic, but this deodorant has actually, truly been life changing for me. Gone are the days where I have to worry about the way I smell, or keep some back-up deodorant in the car so I can reapply throughout the day, or constantly think about how high my arms are up in the air. Nope. Now I don’t have to worry. I apply in the morning and go. That’s it! The fact that Native is all natural and you can pronounce all of the ingredients in it is a HUGE bonus. I don’t have to worry about that cancer I was talking about. Oh, and have I mentioned that it won’t leave those nasty white deodorant marks on your clothes either? Really. It’s true.

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If you’re unsure about that whole life changing part? Have no fear, I am not the only one who has stated these words: Buzzfeed has also dubbed Native Deodorant as life changing. It’s a thing. So if you’re tired of trying all kinds of deodorants, and wanting the hunt to end (mine took around 16 years!) then head on over to their website and place an order. Still not sure? With the discount code lindsay10, you can get 10% off your entire order! Plus, with free shipping, it’s a win win…win. I promise, you will be happy you tried it. Now go on and order that deodorant.

You can buy it here and don’t forget to use my discount code!img_1755

(I know this picture is out of focus, but it’s near impossible to get a 3 and a 5 year old to cooperate entirely 😅)

 

*This is not a sponsored post. I love the product so much, I reached out to them. In turn, they are sending me some free deodorant (yippee!), but all thoughts and opinions are my own.